My 13 year old cousin molested me when I was 6. I don't remember how long it went on for, but when I was 13, he was put in the icu because he had attempted suicide. I prayed for him to die, but he recovered. He started coming around.d more often after that. He would ask about my sex life and refer to me as 'sexy'. He even made inappropriate comments about my friends. That's when I finally told someone about what he had done. 7 years of silence finally broke. People started treating me differently after that. My cousin couldn't get in any legal trouble since I had no evidence that he molested me and I blame myself for that. I'm 16 now and Im suffering from ptsd, depression, and anxiety. I have flashbacks of those experiences with him everyday. I can't have a normal relationship with a boy. I self harm and I've been hospitalized because of it and multiple suicide attempts. I hate myself more than anything in the world. I am a victim, and I'm trying to get better. I believe in the mayimba project