So where do I start my story's are long but I will make them short , well my name is max I'm 19 & this is my story .
well I could start when I was about 7 or 8 when I was made to have sexual acts with a man and I'm sure as hell lost my virginity to and how I'm to scared till this day to even tell my family so I hide that one thing from them knowing its wrong but it was so long ago and i didn't need my mom or dad worrying or judging me because of it. I trust the man that took my Pureness from me but I don't hate him because it its another reason why i am like i am today , the next stage in my life was when i started to cut my self i was 11 didn't stop in till i was 13 maybe 15 around there , i started to cut my self to stop the pain i was having , with my family , confused in life and what i was .around this time i was in a relationship with a woman that i loved so much but she was a lot but i never gave up i was young and people didn't understand me i was what u called ''black sheep of the family '' and few months after being with her for a year and half , i lost her my first love to suicide . Yes she did shit that was wrong to me she had her days of verbal abuse mental abuse but she also love and all i wanted was that i was young and didn't want to believe the shit she put me though then i was in the denial and she was depressed and when you're my age you're learning and trying to understand this so called world . and u when u just lost your first love and u where the last person to speak to her and hear her voice last that would kick u down very far in life and that's just one reason i started to cut my self but i never omitted to it when i was ask i just said my dog did it or I don't know what happened , another reason i cut my self is because i was bulled at school i was very insecure about my weight and how i was but ever day i faked it acting like it was ok but deep down it wasn't and never was in till i hit about 14 to 15 i realized it was ok to be gay it was ok to be different and no matter what hell i been though or what i had to fight to keep going i honestly think i now have only 3 reason on why i'm here to day . & that is my fiancé for loving me and showing me that my life will get better all i need was hope , next reason is my family for excepting me for never giving.up even though we have had a hard life they still turned around to say they love me and they proud and the last reason is to help people give them a reasons to keep going show then they are not alone . I have many more story and much more to say but what i told u are key points in to why i am and who i am today and no one will take that from me and haven't since i was 16 , this is my life and i am not a victim and i believe i went though the shit i did to tell my story to let people know u can survive u just have to try and keep fight never giving up and keep pushing ahead because we all have a reason to keep going and keep fight what's yours ?